Its really funny to go back and read what I wrote however many months ago..in fact close to a year ago. I have changed greatly and I can't even hardly believe how much a little time can change you.

Soo lets see how life is now. I've been single for what,7 or so months since I broke up with John in July. Yeah, I totally loved him...NOT! haha It just wasn't happening, plus I wanted to be free and see what it was like to actually be single a for while because I can't remember a time when I was. So over the past months I've had the time of my life. I've done shit I would have never thought I would do, and actually dated people I never thought I would date haha. There's been ups and downs but I didn't let anyone get too close or bring me too far down. Now don't be fooled, this doesn't mean I'm not looking for a guy...because I most ceratinly am. This has just been a very clever way to get rid of all the worthless ones, or the ones only worthy to be friends haha.No offence to any of you, that is haha. In fact, I think I might have found a good one...I just am not quite sure yet. Taking it one day at a time, because honestly why rush it, I have forever to figure this shit out soo I mean its taken this long to find a guy so it can take a little longer until I'm absolutley sure.

Well I really need to get out of this house, my mom is driving me insane.Haha yeah some things never change.

I know noone will read this but guess what...I totally forgot about it and I really like to vent and if noone listens, hell at least i know i got my feelings out somewhere haha. Thank you xanga. hahaa.

Noone ever uses this site anymore. It's basically a waste of space if you ask me. I mean myspace and facebook kick way more ass. And thats the bottom line. In fact to be honest with you, noone probably even going to read this for like 3 months or whatever, cuz noone looks at it. haha. too bad for you xanga, you suck.

its spring break and im bored as hell. i thought spring break was supposed to be fun and all ive done is work and not even leave crestline. blahhh. stupid crestline.

i cant wait until prom, cedar point will be kick ass. well, so will prom but im excited about cedar point. i still need to find a freaking dress. ::sigh:: anyone know where i can find a yellow one? no? okay neither do i.....

oh yeah, its almost been a year for me and john. a little over a month away. im really glad ya know. at least its not like the me and andy relationship where we didnt really even like eachother to say it bluntly.its true for the most part. i really can see myself being with john for an even longer time, hes everything ive ever wanted. yeah everyone says that, but im not even lying.hes great. i love you john ::muah::

well im getting off this shitty computer..leave me some comments. i might get them...sometime. Peace out

Soo...tonite I went to the Crawford Crestline game && of course our boys wonWoooo Go#21!!! Ohhh...its been a long week, i have to work yet again tomorrow 11-7,so i suppose everyone should come and see me....*hint hint*

I was just thinkni the other day how much i freakin love having a best friend like brooke.Yeah i have a few others that i love to death,but brooke,well shes the one thats been there thru thick and thin. We've been thru some hard times,and stuff but its all ok because she loves me no matter what.Honestly,shes the only one thats been there thru everything since ive lived here...and its great..brookey thanks for being there for me...i love you more than anything--you'll get thru this cuz u know stuff liek this happens...you dont need him anyways because youre b-e-a-utiful

Yeah anyways,im just bored or whatever so ima get off here and do somethign else i just figured i would update...so leave me comments now lol

I LOVE YOU JOHN

My house is so totally freezing...yeah i havent done shit in this thing for a while..ive been looking for a new layout but im not having much luck...Anyways-my week hasn't been too exciting.Except for the fact that I hung out with Kendra one day..and it was totally weird.She is so different now and if any of you know her you'll know what i mean.Its like theres two of this other person she hangs out with..and I just don't connect with her anymore  Then yesterday at work (my only day of work this week) I saw Brytni....Oh man do i miss her.Me and her were so close during the summer..and its awesome because she hasn't changed at all except for the fact that she finally broke up with anthony for good. I love that girly alottt. Yeah and another girl that I miss would be none other than Brookey. I love you Brookey..and we do need to get back to how we used to be..even tho it might not even be possible..who knows. It seems like I'm doing alot of the missing people around here...but i guess thats how it goes ya know. I still love my girlies more than anything in the world...I just wish I still had someone to run to with all my problems....Maybe...?

Anyways enough of that...I'm really cold so Im gonna go put some real warm clothes on and find someone to go to the game with tonight to watch my sweet boyfriend play --Home against Riverdale-- Good luck #31!I love you baby